Brothers and sisters, pray for me. How will I ever persevere until the very end? I am so wretched, so evil, so vile. My heart only longs for Jesus sometimes. I am torn by the things of this world, all its temptations, lusts, and pleasures. I am a horrible husband, and a horrible father. I read Psalm 15 and I wonder how I will ever attain. I am not violent to take the kingdom, but only the violent will take it. How can I strive when I don't desire to even strive? I am too weak to strive. I don't even desire to pick up my Bible. I am torn by the cares of this life, the necessities of life and the weariness of sin. How can I overcome the world when I feel overcome by it?
"Just rest in Jesus," some will say. But the warnings in Hebrews do not tell us to just "rest."
Yet, I cannot do this in my own power.
I am horrible at keeping my promises, and horrible at keeping my oaths.
I am more sinful today than I was at the beginning of my Christian life.
My prayer, "Lord, have mercy on me," is becoming repetitive.
Brothers and sisters, pray that the Holy Spirit would keep me. I have no strength left.
Behold, I am vile.